Gothical Incarnation

haiisshhh. it ishh so terrible. it ishh so tiring. it ishh so sians. izzit really so tiring tuu love sum1 den tuu be loved?? ie am sooon gonna die le luhs. what am i tinking?? evryting ishh soo hard tuu do. tings tat ie need den ie cannot find. so stupid. where r my stuffs?? ie need dem. ie cannot take it. argg. doesnt any1 just understand. atc coming. HOW AM I GONNA EARN DE BEST CAMPER BADGE WHEN MY FEELINGS R LIDDAT?? ie really cannot take it le luhs. STUPID. cherlynn dardar. haiishhx. i don tink i can do it leh. i going faint le luhs. haiishhx. actually ie listen tuu technos onli when ie am liddat. den i will blast it veri loud in my ears till i feeling better. if cannot den de louder i will blast it. but de loudest le lyk still no use leh. haiishhx. no lunch fer mi den. nth ishh making mi happy now. evryting ishh useless. whyie am ie treating myself liddat. stupid memories juz cant b erased. WHYIE??? todae got work sum more. ie don feel lyk mit-ing wif any1 le arhx. ie rather work alone. cousins of mine came nd c mi blasting techno songs den go WAHH!!!! liddat onli. not de onli time ie hav been blasting musics. got 1 time i blast until ie go sian den fall aslp. lols. ie veri xin ku cann. not de music but de stupid stuff tat went inside my head. not ie not angry. not ie not jealous. IE LIED OKAY. sorwie ie lied but euu lied too. ie not 3 yr old kid cann. don treat mi lyk 1. ie not her luhs. her ishh her. mi ishh mi. ie noe ie not her but euu can don keep telling mi tings abt her. ie cannot take it all at once cann. e love rain so much. mayb it ishh raining fer mi. it ishh soo nice when ppl cant c tat euu r crying or de pain in euur heart ishh really aching. eva since euu came, evryting changed. really changed. ie don wanna tell euu tat so when 1 dae when euu leave mi wuu won noe tat ie am in soo much pain nd it hurts mi so much. de motivation in mi tat sir kenny gave ishh no longer in my heart, ie don noe where it went. ie wanna find it back. ie wanna find de old mi back. de stupid little happy-go-lucky gal back. she ishh so innocent last time. ie admitted tat ie hav changed. ie am sooo sorwie tat ie treat euu all liddat. pls. ie beg of euu ie really cannot take it le. ie am veri xin ku. nth ishh working out rite. ie stupid okayys. ie will be honest. ie cant survive alone okayys. sob. dose bloody words euu sae hurt mi okayys. ie am angry nd jealous le. happy?? nw ie starving lyk siao. nd ie planning not tuu eat cause of euu nd dose stupid words!!!