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Wednesday, September 13, 2006 hais. sian. today. we had pe lessons. quite okay until the ending. i discover 1 thing which cause my heart to really break. maybe what he guessed about me is true. no one ever saw what i really have kept in my heart. not even him. he was the 1st to find out what i have been trying to hide all this years. should i talk to him about it? maybe. what i have wore all this years is a invisible mask. mayb because of that particular mask, it made me become invisible. so invisble that no one noticed that i was there shouting out. everything is so hard for me to accept, if not for that mask, people might think i'm trying to get attention. but sad to say, i'm not. HE maybe was because of me starting to found out what they have been trying to hide from me was affected by my moodlessness. but he's just a friend of mine and nothing else. i have already discovered it for quite a long time, it's just that i don't want to make people think that i want them to pity me so the mask is still there. i will still take it as nothing has happen and be normal, but it would not be the same now because now i have discovered the real truth. the truth is always so hurting. maybe i might even try to avoid you all so one day when you discovered that i seems to be missing from there then you might see that i have isolated myself from you all. now, i would like to end this as i have to go, bye, readers, please take care! Goth Girl 5:51 pm |